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ok firstly i wanna say alhamdulillah, my life is getting better day by day :') thanks Allah, im so happy. thank u so much to those who concern abt me. thank u so much xoxo i really appreciate that u could understand how im feeling. tak semua org boleh faham, seriously. im so touched! i just need yr supportive words, its more than enough. so now, im standing fr who i am and not fr anyone else. rasa disayangi sgt bila org care pasal kita hohoho xD


and now taktau la bila nak balik rumah hahaha, why you've changed drastically farra? takkan sampai tak igt jalan balik rumah kot??? hahaha no lah gurau je, gila apa tak nak balik rumah? rumah KOT hahaha. so everyone wll be going back home tomorrow while i have koko on saturday, so kena postponed la balik seremban hari sabtu after class koko -.- but sumpah i never felt thi feeling yg tak kisah pulak balik rumah lambat sikit dari dorg, before this mmg aku la yg number one bab balik rumah ni hahaha ;p people change babe, u should know that


so today as usual after class chill jap dalam bilik, after that hujan lebat gila alhamdulillah. around 530 ngam ngam nak gi gym hujan stop pulak kan, rezeki nak pergi gym la tu hihihi so to conclude, everything went well today :D




p/s : alhamdulillah alhamdulillah, thank u beautiful ppl fr yr support. i love u <3 br="">

the fact is ;

so since im studying in shah alam, second sem ni baru la aku banyak dgr yg lecturers semua study kat overseas dulu. cz they say dulu senang nak pergi overseas, malaysia jumpa minyak je terus hantar anak melayu pergi study overseas. how lucky u are lecturers! jealous pun ada, sbb skrg mostly yg pergi overseas pun pakai duit sendiri. i want scholarship tp belum ada rezeki lg ;(


so, dr hamidah ckp kita ni kira untung sbb frm generation to generation hidup kita makin maju. makin maju tu semua sbb education. and dia suruh kita tgk negara jiran like indonesia, africa, and apa lg la kan. negara dorg still ada yg susah. it means like dari monyang sampai ke cicit sama je taraf hidup dia. tu sbb dorg tak pentingkan education or maksud lain kerajaan dorg tak support sgt untuk org yg susah ni. malaysia ni dari dulu lg dia terus hantar semua pergi study overseas tak kisah spm dia gred yg ketiga meaning like only 1A pun lps. so the result is now la, ramai yg pandai pandai. tapi ekonomi je still taktau nak cakap camne hohoho


patut la papa mama tak bg aku and adik abang kerja. sometimes aku rasa down, give up rasa nak quit then kerja cz of money lg penting. tapi i salute papa mama, dorg langsung tak bagi. alhamdulillah, now i know education is very important. so if u have another passion like dancing, playing football ke apa ke kan. pls pls pls, masa muda ni go for further studies, cz trust me if one day u're not in a good condition, u wouldnt be the same anymore. kau jgn igt kau akan hebat sampai mati, pls wake up! mmg tak lah, hidup ni ada naik turun. so jgn berlagak hebat sgt. i dnt care if u're really great, but still pls pandang bawah be grateful to Him.


p/s : think wisely. education is very important, tak bermaksud kau tak boleh buat benda yg kau minat. still can whattttt

Define frustrated anyone?

anyway, can i just talk abt someone? okkk lets start, i have this one friend. she's so in love w one guy and yes they used to be together. i dnt know how much his love towards the girl until he kept on promising everything very seriously.

but the sure thing is, the girl had been soooo in love w the guy. and wanted to make him as her last one.


suddenly, after few months, everything has changed where the boy always busy and dnt have time fr his girl. and normally, perempuan lah kan? suka overthinking, even aku rasa aku ni tak pun macam perempuan lain yg overthinking. no, sama je actually. ok so, the girl try to text him and asking where u have been? what are u up to?  busy? and bla bla bla la kan, then the boy ni pulak pandai betul nak jaga hati. dnt worry im here just got something to do, i love u and all la kan. sweet talker sangat wey hahaha ;ppp


and then, kalau aku jadi perempuan tu, i have that strong instinct yg ckp nooo maybe there's something wrong w him, before this busy je tapi still have time to spend w. atleast la one text. okkk sambung, so perempuan ni cam bongok je tunggu tunggu.

last, dia taktahan and tegur la 'can u tell me whats really happening rn? honestly.' and the guy still try to avoid, pastu perempuan ni pulak tembak la lg hahaha cam machine gun kaan xd okk at last the guy says 'if i tell u, u wont be fine.' masalahnya kalau kau tak cakap, aku rasa perempuan tu lg gila nak fikir kenapa and all?????????????? bongok jugak kau ni hahahaha

and the answer he gave to my friend is 'im sorry, i feel guilty, i just not ready yet to have a serious relationship w u. i ada banyak kawan perempuan, i taknak dorg kata i sombong.' WHAT THE HE** hahahaha lawak laaa, but sumpah sangat la childish. u chose to jaga hati perempuan tu semua than perempuan yg kau bajet nak serious siap janji semua ni? camtu? okkkk la kalau camtu.

and after that, the girl pun suddenly felt down, taktau lah down banyak mana sampai menyepikan diri hahaha no updates on twitter and insta. is that call frustrated?


p/s : think and answer okkk guys? :*

tueselasaday hihihi

alhamdulillah, today dah masuk hari ketiga aku puasa sunat. semalam ok je maybe sbb tak banyak class kot. tapi harini dia punya penat ya allah, entah la taktau nak cakap camne hahaha sumpah rasa penat dia. tadi dah ada niat dah nak pergi gym, tapi tak kesampaian sbb dgn kepala berdenyut nya jawab test calculus tadi. PENAT SANGATTTT!


semalam aku berbuka puasa makan koko krunch je hehe, but today i was having carbonara fr berbuka. beli kat dc je mampu beb hehe, lama tak pergi dc so tadi tetiba rasa nak pergi kan hehe


andddd paling happy nya, masa balik dari dc tadi lalu la dewan mawar kat bawah kolej ni. dalam tu ada bilik gym, so aku dah lama nak tgk rupa treadmill dia camne hohoho ;pp finally dah terjawab pun, ok gak la tak kecik macam kat melati hehe. so senang la lps ni tak payah nak susah pergi gym fsr yg jauh gila tu. IMMA HAPPY GIRL!XD

p/s : im sorry if i've changed to someone that is not gooood ;(

i am sorry

i just done w my revisions. chill jap hehe. ok so last week on monday, betul betul baru je habis midsem break seriously aku tak ready betul nak masuk class nak hadap everything kat shah alam. tp i try to be strong jugak la kan. alhamdulillah, ok je semua nya. tapiiii last week tu on sunday mama and adik yg hantar aku balik kolej, so igt nak stay here fr a month straight. konon nyaaaaa last last isnin tu jugak after english class je cabut balik seremban naik ktm ;D hahahaha apa daaaaa farrra. entah la belum ready lg mental aku time tu


okkk pastu kan, pagi isnin last week tu ada sorg kawan dari sekolah lama ni dia whatsapp aku. and btw dia baru je masuk sini frm diploma at lendu. dak dak masscomm la ni hehe. dia whatsapp nak ajak makan sama, padahal aku dah dalam ktm hohoho. then acah la cakap makan dinner ke apa ke la eh. dia pulak jenis tak reti sabar tah kenapa dah aku pun pelik. sabar sikit boleh kan hahaha adoi -.- last last drag sampai rabu malam, so we went fr dinner at seksyen 13 area msu tu.


patut la dia heboh nak jumpa aku, girlfriend dia takda sini. so before girlfriend dia balik, nak jumpa aku la ni? ohhhh camtu :O then dia cerita la masalah dia dgn girlfriend dia, bla bla bla. ya allah, kenapa la yg dtg kat aku semua boyfriend orang? hahaha aku ni bukannya dpt settle anything pun. boyfriend aku sendiri pun tah siapa tah.


camni la senang cerita, we just make it easyyy ok? I DONT DATE SOMEONE'S BOYFRIEND, pls notice that. tak kisah lah even u're just a boyfriend to someone, but still you have her. im sorry that i have to tell this, mmg betul. i dnt want to involve in anyone's relationship, its between u and yr partner, not me tau? u can tell me the problem, through whatsapp je pun boleh kot rasanya.

surely, masing masing takut dgn girlfriend masing masing. so jgn buat perangai behind her back ok? kesian kat dorg. u're a man, be strong sikit. slowly, everything can be settle down. okkkk? first think first before do something.



p/s : no more play around.

jeng jeng jenggg

hi ya allah excited nya nak update blog! tapi first thing first aku kena study dulu, sbb apa tauuuu sbb esok aku ada test 1 CALCULUS III woiiii. malam sikit la ehhh baru syiok hehe :*


p/s : wish me luck babe xo

?????

ok lets start. i really dnt understand why w myself, what's really going on. aku tak faham. but the thing is i cannot be happy like i have been before, which is always be positive no matter what. but now? entah there's like something goes wrong. i just really need someone to talk to. i need a friend, atleast one friend that can listen to my sadness. sumpah im being so down lately, that's why i need my family so much. tu sbb aku slalu ulang alik seremban-shah alam and try to not ponteng the classes. even aku dpt kolej and boleh je stay kolej. tp kau takkan faham apa yg aku rasa. you will never know

kau tau sbb apa? sbb kau ramai kawan, tak sama cam aku. susah betul jd perempuan ni, nak cari kawan pun nak kena tgk tgk dulu. so you cannot just simply ckp 'gedik la nak ulang alik, lebih baik tak payah dpt kolej' omggg -.- cuba kau jadi cam aku, yg masuk kelas je rasa hambar balik bilik rasa hambar. kau boring tak? ada semangat tak nak buat anything? ofcourse you will answer 'no'. so pls stop judging.

penat la, penat nak fikir tu ni semua.



p/s : He really knows everything whats inside and out.

OMG FINALLY! HAHAHA

weyyyy aku dah boleh log in blog lamaaa! omygod! hahaha at last! alhamdulillah, okay gonna make a change fr this blog then baru boleh continue anything abt myself, so exciting babe! hehehe see ya xo